on sunday night joe and i finally met pat at starbucks... to talk about his plans of leaving and settling down in aussie... the day has come sooner than i thought... then as i sat there listening to them talking i just started to wander off in my own thoughts and was thinking about how stupid pat can be sometimes... the whole logic of keeping his distance so that it'll be easier for him to leave is just stupid! it doesn't make sense...at least not to me... we didn't even get to go for our manicure together... somehow i get the feeling that it doesn't matter much to him... but yeah....
then i started to tear cos i realised that i was gonna lose the first real friend i ever really had in 8 years... that thought just got me really down... i should just face it... i'm never destined to have a real friend whom i can go to with my problems and just bitch about everything and anything... and meet up at weird times of the day to rackey all the weird places in plaza for good tea... i think i'm gonna cry again at the airport...but hey who cares... no one's gonna be crying for me...

Jeanne spoke her mind @ 1:51 PM