yesterday...i felt so damn alone. i sat down below lor's block...praying that she would wake up and call me back. but she didn't. so i sat there at the play ground.
i needed someone to talk to.
so bad.
and suddenly i missed pat.
he would have been there for me.
he would have listened to wat i had to say.
would understand why i feel the way i feel.
wouldn't judge me for the way i feel.
wouldn't say i was too sensitive.
would know that sometimes things are too much for me to bear.
because i'm afraid.
because the fear in me is too strong to go away in 2 months.
he would have dropped everything he was doing and come meet me.
or mayb he used to.
dun think he will now even if he was in town. too busy with his own life.
so i sat there by myself.
till the lights went out.
then i got up.
took a deep breath and sucked it up.
afterall, that's wat life is all about.
suck it up.
whether or not you like it.
and life carried on.

Jeanne spoke her mind @ 2:04 PM