i wish there were no such things as friends backstabbing you or trying to sow discord. but that isn't the case, cos it's a world out there where there are bound to be ugly people... sometimes i just don't understand. but it's just so.

dinner was with gerard at the ritz. seafood buffet.. which was really good. but cost a bomb. kopitiam would have been just fine.. pardon if i'm not gushing about it, but i'm just not in the mood.
talking to gerard, joe was right.. he is wise and he does say things that induce thoughts. which is good. but talking to him also made me miss pat. i really do. honestly, there's no one quite as brutally honest yet true and sincere. shit all this talking here, talking there trying to clean up mess made by some asshole. it's unwanted and unnecessary mess already added onto the current situation. i don't think it helps anyone involved feel any better insinuating things. but yeah, this post was meant to be about how shitty i feel. if pat was around, probably all this would have been simpler. come back from bloody australia.

you know the conversation today, it's true that upbringing has alot to do with the person one is and the character one has. i think my family dynamics taught me to be strong no matter what shit happens. i know shit happens and you just have to deal with it. and the one thing i've drawn is to treat ppl how you want to be treated and to be independent. i've learnt how to handle alot of things by myself. and to be responsible for myself and for the ppl that matter.

i should just cut off the poisonous things in my life. no point trying to be civil.

Jeanne spoke her mind @ 3:28 AM